desperate for change

Routines kept me busy.. very busy that I (who were once organized like Bree) became very messy like Susan Mayer. Haha am I desperate? yup, very desperate for more quality times on my own rather than calming my messed up mind and eventually wasted the whole day doing nothing.

So I joined Fitness First!! After a year resting and playing with jellies wellies jinggle bells monkey smells, I feel soo good with myself. I thought after i quit True Fitness and shifted to Kajang, I could save up on my gym membership fees and exercise on my own. Hangat-hangat tahi ayam je lah. Fitness centres have great environment and u just feel so motivated looking at hot bodies, MTVs and the music! And here I am, worked out for the 3rd time in Fitness First, hoping to get a well-toned bikini body I always wanted..in 3months time?? woohooo...

Yoga is no longer in list now since it's Haram for muslims. I admit I have great passion for yoga before, but considering myself as beginner, I only went for basic & intermediate classes where they thought u on breathing & postures. I didn't remember myself saying or even listen to any prayers, but as what people say, these are silent exposure to Hinduism. The lotus pose, might posess something in Hinduism that we Muslims might not know. They even have Sun Salutation class (which I never thought of going). Final session in Yoga always ends with corpse-pose, where u lie on the floor like corpse, in a dimmed-light, and relax.. The ending were the best session for me, since that will be the best time for quick nap! ahahaha..

It's good to notice people has become more concious over their health; you can tell by the birth of many fitness centres and pharmacies. But, it's also sad to know until today, the top 3 killers in our country were all due to overconsumption of food and unhealthy lifestyle. We have plenty of great healthy foods around that we ditched everyday, and somehow we prefers unhealthy diets. Late nite drinks is the trend today ; we sacrifice our bedtime to watch football, drinks at least 3 glasses of teh-tarik, smoking/shisha, lalala and I must say it worries me. And yet, that's what Malaysian loves..and what my fiance does EVERY NIGHT. Don't blame me for calling him so often when he is lepaking with you ok? My duty is to remind .. and keep reminding...

And now he said he enjoys "minum2" but in a healthy way.. hmm.. ye ke?? ;p

Message to all, Love yourself..for it will be returned one day..

Never Argue with a Woman..

One morning the husband returns after several hours of fishing and decides to take a nap. Although not familiar with the lake, the wife decides to take the boat out. She motors out a short distance, anchors, and reads her book.

Along comes a Game Warden in his boat. He pulls up alongside the woman and says,

'Good morning, Ma'am. What are you doing? '

'Reading a book,' she replies, (thinking, 'Isn't that obvious?')

'You're in a Restricted Fishing Area,' he informs her.

'I'm sorry, officer, but I'm not fishing. I'm reading"

''Yes, but you have all the equipment. For all I know you could start at any moment. I'll have to take you in and write you up."

'For reading a book,' she replies

'You're in a Restricted Fishing Area,' he informs her again

'I'm sorry, officer, but I'm not fishing.. I'm reading'

'Yes, but you have all the equipment. For all I know you could start at any moment. I'll have to take you in and write you up.'

'If you do that, I'll have to charge you with Sexual assault,' says the woman.

'But I haven't even touched you,' says the game warden.

'That's true, but you have all the equipment. For all I know you could start at any moment.'

'Have a nice day ma'am,' and he left.

MORAL: Never argue with a woman who reads. It's likely she can also think...

;p

Sepi

Finally, I get to watch Sepi..

Hmm.. I don't know how to review the film.. my emotion is seriously dominating me..

Sepi really got me.. damn!





Sedihnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ~~~~~

engaged??

Most friends are aware that i'm engaged to Megat Noor Ikram. And this Hari Raya would be the last Raya celebration as a single. haha. Everything would be the last ; Last Iftar, Last Raya, Last Visit, bla bla but it's not that bad. In fact, I can't wait !! ;p

It'll be great to have my BEST buddy / partner / soulmate with me 24/7. I don't have to drive all the way from Kajang to Bangsar to hang out with him, no more long hours calls or non stop sms and short calls asking how are u n all.. I'll be with my punching bag all the time ! yeay!

I can still hear people telling me not to get engaged too long to avoid "dugaan". It freaked us out before. When I asked them what sort of dugaan, they mentioned it will be the time u feel like u made the wrong choice or u'll meet a better person, u'll know his true colors, etc. Haha. I took those as a precaution but I still go with the engagement. For me, life is not the same for everybody and there's no rule saying that it's wrong or right to get engaged. If it meant to be painful, why people still get engaged? And I believe in jodoh..

It's been 6 months carrying this status. Alhamdulillah, we had the best times together, we get to meet families, we plan our big day accordingly, and we seem to enjoy the countdown.. The heartbeat gets faster and faster each day. I must say we made the right choice of getting engaged for 11 months. Not too long or too short for us. Engagement is like a pre-wedding preparation and it will be one of the best moment of your life if you know how to appreciate the times. As for myself, my relationship with my family members grew closer, and I realize I have families and friends who endlesslly support me, who will always be behind my back through thick and thin. I get really close with cousins, and i'm glad they showed up and offer great help to me without any costs. Mum, Aunts and grandmas has been encouraging me to cook more often and always remind me of the tips of having a heavenly marriage. First, to be an excellent wife (in every way).. Next, let's just keep it to myself. hihi.

I have learned so much about his family, about their likes and dislikes, family activities, and i'm happy they accept me for what I am. I can feel the ties whenever i'm around them, and yeahh i can soo be myself! His parents are great!! His siblings rock!! And I even had tea alone with his Aunt once.

Wedding of a dream is not a fairytale anymore. We discussed the best possible wedding we could afford that will be memorable and extraordinary. Our concern is not the grand $$$$$ wedding but the comfort that matters. We want our special guests to feel special and most importantly comfortable like we do.

Recently, a friend of mine said to me " I don't think I wanna get engaged, membazir je.. baik kawin terus!" I didn't fight her back, i just agreed. Inside, her words crashes me so bad. I did not see any unnessesary spending during my engagement? Photographers are FOC, (i love u guys!!), Hantaran are according to my budget. Foods? We love to spend for foods for families and guest. Canopy? We need them, it's a large rombongan and it's hot outside ! And the backdrop? It's very nice i didn't expect it. My uncle Razak is the greatest! Maybe my make up is a little too much for engagement. It's nice but the smokey effect on my eyes doesn't suit me that much, i think. So ape yang membazir nya?? My only concern for everyone is comfort. I hope everyone was comfortable that day.

She also said "malas la dugaan dugaan ni, baik kawin terus takyah risau dugaan". If you can't survive your dugaan before marriage, how can u survive then? Marriage is a huge commitment, I believe. And ur not only married to your husband, but family, burdens, kids, financial security, and loads more. If I were to compare, my dugaan is even worst before i got engaged. Really. My parents don't trust anyone easily. Now, it's different! My mum loves him very much. For those who knows my mum, u'll be suprised..!!

Please pray for us.. I hope this love I have for him will remain strong and solid, and together we're invincible..

i will love you until my dying day

Hope our love will bring us to heaven.. coz it is heaven sent..

vintage

Amal makruf nahi mungkar

The last time I had sudden disabilities was in 1999 ; I fractured my right leg during Math Camp in Janda Baik. Couldn't walk for a month or two..

And again... i had a sudden muscle cramp on my neck and shoulder, during the month of Ramadhan. It happened during Fajr, i couldn't move, can't even turn my head. I thought I broke my spine.. I wanted to laugh so hard and cry at the same time. It took me half an hour just to wake up and get my parents.

Doctor told me it was muscle cramps, should heal in a day or two.. And I googled..

"A muscle cramp is thus defined as an involuntarily and forcibly contracted muscle that does not relax. This causes a visible or palpable hardening of the involved muscle" source http://www.medicinenet.com/muscle_cramps/article.htm

"There are six basic causes of cramping:[1] hyperflexion; inadequate oxygenation; exposure to large changes in temperature; dehydration; low blood salt; or low blood calcium" source http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Muscle_cramp

Yeah yeahh...My muscle haven't relax these days.. My accounts clerk is missing and ditch her workloads on me.. *curses* We were worried to death and finally I got to know she wanted to quit.. due to "better" offer. Damn you selfish brat! U were no one when u get here. When u get all the things u wanted u wish for better things this way. We can definitely sue her action for not giving a month notice of resignation. And I will..

And the weather... ouhh.. It's heaty outside and freezing cold in office. I guess these contributes to my cramps.

Calcium? Hmm if I could milk bath everyday, I would. I loooove milk.

Oxygen? Perhaps.. Haven't jog in a while.

And today is the 2nd day, I had to cancel very important appointments with the accountant. I can't lay back or sleep, I need supports to get up. Oh God, If this is a test, I hope I passed them, I hope I could benefit as much as I could in this blessful month. And I pray you could give me strenghts to do what I have to do.. Amin..

Happy Ramadhan to all.. May all of us value this opportunity to wash away our sins and gain as much rewards esp during Lailatul Qadr. How can we be compared with our ancestors & Rasullullah companions who fights for blessings from Allah day and night..?